I thought your love would weaken me, consume me dry

the thought of leaving made my heart cry 

afraid I drowned in my fear, my mind convinced me that you should disappear

you captured me, you said it all leaving me speechless

I thought it over and I became fearless 

then I was alone thinking about you from dusk to dawn

my mind kept playing this bad scenario, like a broken record in a stereo 

why is it every time I almost follow my heart my mind screams wake up from your dreams 

It grounds me to earth making me face a cold truth with an end at which I lose

so I run away from what's anticipated , you look at me "we haven't even debated!!" 

until when"will I live in fear??" I ask my self no answer, nothing is clear

my heart is dying inside and I am alone again

all your tries to contact me has gone in vain 

watching the dawn, crying under the rain, i end my confusion by slitting a vein.   

  

DESTINED LOVE

you know how is it when you meet someone and your souls recognize each other, time stops for a second everything goes neutral even the heat of the summer

It might sound like a cliche but the place and time were perfect and it looked like it was worth it
then it turns out to be a mistake, he asks you for what you can't make not even for love's sake

you act yourself and offer friendship but he wants more, you love him in your heart's core
but he's so confusing that at some point you don't know if you're wining or losing

you walk away don't look back cause you don't want him to see your tears with every step you take you let go of your fears and your heart's wound further heals. 

THE MUSIC

The music's so loud in the room, i have curlers in my hair

 crazy dancing in my shorts, singing in a comb, i turn around and see you there 

your jaw is dropped  and your face has this stare 

then suddenly out of nowhere you try to imitate my moves, i am kind of shy and frozen but trying to look like i don't care 

you keep on dancing and moving closer ,then i see a camera in your hand, thinking "oh you didn't dare"

APART

Sitting in the dark hugging your picture, my eyes are sour
Cried so much, I can't take it any more
First time I regret doing the right thing
Everything happened too fast like a blink
One moment we were kissing the next we were screaming
Now I am sitting by the phone waiting
Slowly I playback our dates and fights
and how you gradually stole my rights
My rights to choose, to talk, to decide and defy
so I packed my things and walked away without goodbye
I love you so much that it gave you power over me
The sadness in your eyes the melancholy
Playing the piano in the middle of the night
you're so deeply affected by the sad music -eyes closed and fingers pushing those keys smoothly- what a sight
I can never describe the pain and how the days pass slowly and quietly
but Sooner or later I will move on knowing and believing that you weren't the one for me

THE FIRST TIME

The first time we met I was clumsy you were calm

 We shook hands and electricity went through my palm

              I made quite an entrance with my fall

 You helped me up, our eyes met, your grey eyes burned into my soul

               You looked so young and stress free

  and before I know it you got hold of me