Death is inevitable I know
but you can't blame me for missing you and I can't stop myself
I fool myself when I say I was relieved that you were gone
you were a part of me I didn't want to admit that this part is done
I loved you I love you still and I owe that no will
Please forgive me for everything I never meant it
I know how much you loved me and how much I didn't deserve it
I can't tell you how much I wish I could rewind this single time of my entire existence
how much I want to right it but I can't
I will forever regret and I'll never forget
I AM SORRY
freelance
Friday, February 12, 2016
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
pain
How many times i couldn't sleep??
that chest pain cutting in so deep
the important question what's the reason behind it??
a life quest that started so early
my breath is hardly leaving my chest just barely
some nights is worst than others
some aren't so bad i know you might think how sad
a girl who has everything even before she was born
sometimes it keeps me awake till dawn
no one understands how deep is the pain
and how slowly my life drain
Inspiration
you inspired me to have a purpose in life
before you i was roaming the earth alone living breathing but empty inside
if you look deeper into my soul it seemed as if i died
like a zombie days flew no change nothing new
until you came into my life you gave me a reason to fight and survive
you gave me back what i have lost the ability to dream
you illuminated my dim like a shining light beam
saying i love you seems as an understatement to my feelings towards you
love infatuation all words that won't give my feelings it's fair due
but i do love you ocean wide as deep as the sea
your true place is in my heart and it always shall be
MY KNIGHT AS SILLY AS IT MAY SEEM
BABY YOU 'RE THE ANSWER TO EVERY WISH AND DREAM
Sunday, September 29, 2013
The Damage Is Done
you told me to choose either you or him
loving you Is legit but loving him Is the perfect sin
I loved you once but my heart has changed I've changed our love though epic as It was
It felt as If I am lost In an endless maze
with him It seems as If I have found the way
there Is nothing that will ease your pain nothing that I'll say
his love has opened every barricaded door
It has rocked me to the core
making me question everything all that I am
telling you today Is the hardest thing to do
cause though it's him I am choosing It's you that I am losing
love Is undefined all that I know Is that It either sets you free or leaves you In a cage confined
It either helps you thrive or consume you rendering you barely alive
Sunday, May 12, 2013
RelationShit
lost in life wondering away from the path she once charted
she swirled in to chaos when she met you and still..... though you have departed
were you the disease or the cure everything is obscure
living the cold routine everyone pass unseen
her soul is crying for help, it's disparately showing in her eyes one thing she can't disguise
the further she held on to him the more she sunk into darkness
Now willingly falling off path wondering aimlessly in that empty void of craziness
his entity is lingering to her soul clinging
wasted until her last breath she's sinking
no way out no release until she ceases to exist
those are the rules of the game
if you let him control you, your role would be to please
and once you're done
NO MORE EXISTANCE NO MORE SUN
she swirled in to chaos when she met you and still..... though you have departed
were you the disease or the cure everything is obscure
living the cold routine everyone pass unseen
her soul is crying for help, it's disparately showing in her eyes one thing she can't disguise
the further she held on to him the more she sunk into darkness
Now willingly falling off path wondering aimlessly in that empty void of craziness
his entity is lingering to her soul clinging
wasted until her last breath she's sinking
no way out no release until she ceases to exist
those are the rules of the game
if you let him control you, your role would be to please
and once you're done
NO MORE EXISTANCE NO MORE SUN
Thursday, November 8, 2012
I thought your love would weaken me, consume me dry
the thought of leaving made my heart cry
afraid I drowned in my fear, my mind convinced me that you should disappear
you captured me, you said it all leaving me speechless
I thought it over and I became fearless
then I was alone thinking about you from dusk to dawn
my mind kept playing this bad scenario, like a broken record in a stereo
why is it every time I almost follow my heart my mind screams wake up from your dreams
It grounds me to earth making me face a cold truth with an end at which I lose
so I run away from what's anticipated , you look at me "we haven't even debated!!"
until when"will I live in fear??" I ask my self no answer, nothing is clear
my heart is dying inside and I am alone again
all your tries to contact me has gone in vain
watching the dawn, crying under the rain, i end my confusion by slitting a vein.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
DESTINED LOVE
you know how is it when you meet someone and your souls recognize each other, time stops for a second everything goes neutral even the heat of the summer
It might sound like a cliche but the place and time were perfect and it looked like it was worth it
then it turns out to be a mistake, he asks you for what you can't make not even for love's sake
you act yourself and offer friendship but he wants more, you love him in your heart's core
but he's so confusing that at some point you don't know if you're wining or losing
you walk away don't look back cause you don't want him to see your tears with every step you take you let go of your fears and your heart's wound further heals.
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